I wish it were possible. But it's a part of me, whether I like it or not.
Some of the spiritkind has their own form of "allure". One that can charm those around them. Foxes are the ones that hold the strongest allure of all. Mine own is... corrupted. It can cause an influence that is close to maddened lust in men. I was left vulnerable at birth after the Demon Lord of the Underworld attempted to claim our land, and the Goddess' light within me protected us. And one of his minions used it to corrupt my allure. I believe... they are what you call pheromones here.
It has already destroyed the relationship between my adopted brother and myself. I would rather it doesn't do so to anyone else. That is why, even if I feel the way I do for Samatoki, I can't risk hurting him with myself. I wear limiters to reduce the risk, but every month I have to remove them to let my body breathe. If any men were to be around me, then, they'd be sent into a frenzy and strike at anyone nearby, becoming like beasts.
Back home, I was locked away for years once it worsened. It was my childhood friends who found a solution, however temporary. But it's why I need to be careful. Thank you, though. You're the first I've told of this. It feels like a relief to have at least one person know...
Hm. I’d like to think that if a minion managed to corrupt your allure that there may be some way to purify it here. There are all sorts of moonblessed here, some who aren’t human and come from worlds similar to your own. Perhaps it’s something worth not giving up on. If it’s Samatoki you’re worried about, you shouldn’t. Nothing scares him. He’s been through a lot. Even if he knew, I know for certain that he wouldn’t leave your side. And neither will I, rest assured. Regardless of that fact, I will respect your wishes. It’s your decision to tell others, should you ever decide that you want to.
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But it's a part of me, whether I like it or not.
Some of the spiritkind has their own form of "allure".
One that can charm those around them.
Foxes are the ones that hold the strongest allure of all.
Mine own is... corrupted.
It can cause an influence that is close to maddened lust in men.
I was left vulnerable at birth after the Demon Lord of the Underworld attempted to claim our land, and the Goddess' light within me protected us.
And one of his minions used it to corrupt my allure.
I believe... they are what you call pheromones here.
It has already destroyed the relationship between my adopted brother and myself.
I would rather it doesn't do so to anyone else.
That is why, even if I feel the way I do for Samatoki,
I can't risk hurting him with myself.
I wear limiters to reduce the risk, but every month I have to remove them to let my body breathe.
If any men were to be around me, then, they'd be sent into a frenzy and strike at anyone nearby, becoming like beasts.
Back home, I was locked away for years once it worsened.
It was my childhood friends who found a solution, however temporary.
But it's why I need to be careful.
Thank you, though.
You're the first I've told of this.
It feels like a relief to have at least one person know...
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I’d like to think that if a minion managed to corrupt your allure that there may be some way to purify it here. There are all sorts of moonblessed here, some who aren’t human and come from worlds similar to your own. Perhaps it’s something worth not giving up on. If it’s Samatoki you’re worried about, you shouldn’t. Nothing scares him. He’s been through a lot. Even if he knew, I know for certain that he wouldn’t leave your side.
And neither will I, rest assured.
Regardless of that fact, I will respect your wishes.
It’s your decision to tell others, should you ever decide that you want to.